Aquarius
Daily Planetary Overview
Mercury sextile Venus today will bring good times with friends and a lively social scene. This is a good time to go to a concert or an art gallery, do some reading, or go out dancing. Express yourself artistically.

Your Horoscope - Today, February 25, 2009
Now is the time for you to be thinking about your professional orientation, Melanie. You may need to get some more fun into your life and experience pleasures that you have never had before. You have a certain tendency to separate the two worlds of work and play. But there's no need to. In fact, your work will prosper once you discover ways to make it more playful.

smokeythem...: do you know western union, money gram or paypal?
ColorScientist: yeah why?
smokeytheman: ill pay $1000 right now for a pvt with you
ColorScientist: fuccccccccck that
ColorScientist: no
smokeytheman: i pay first and u can have cash in ur hand in 10 minutes
ColorScientist: i don't downgrade myself for money.
ColorScientist: i have mucyh more respect for myself than that

Your Horoscope - Today, February 20, 2009
Today's aspects will be asking you to make more of an effort, Melanie. To do so means you will have to come back down to earth and join the rest of us mere mortals. You may be cultivating your independent nature a bit too much; it seems to be pulling you away from people. You should rather try to mix with others and get involved in a cause that is bigger than yourself. Accept working with others as a necessary component of getting any job done.


I feel like i've been doing the exact opposite JUST as it says. lol
"cultivating my independent nature too much- pulling myself away from people"
needing to "come back down to earth"


seriously.
on an off note, i had some damn good orange spice green tea this morning and i really want some more xD
I've been trying to eat more healthily lately, but i think i'm goin to get my lunch at chik fil a today and then go hang out at the coffee shop (hopefully working on schoolwork) until time comes to go to work...
I do notttttt feel like putting the effort into working today.

Today is my birthday : D

Hopefully the day will be filled with some good things…

Yesterday some good things:
1)Icecream Cake!
2)GODIVA Chocolate Dipped Strawberries
3)Birthday Money =-0
4)Sephora Gift Card
5)Freshley Bleached Roots
6)Heat In My Car Fixed
7)Letter from College- Made the Dean’s List as of FALL2008 Semester : D

This Morning:
1)Going Out For Breakfast
2)Some Nice Text Messages This Morning
2)…School All Day…We’ll See Where This Goes.

If you don't give a shit, neither will I.

If I could only express with words in a simple fashion...
My personal thoughts, troubles, stress, relationships, worries, ambitions, opinions, preferences....

I've never been too strongly opinionated of a person... Moreso what I almost thought to be anti-opinionated..
Though as I've experienced more and more, I've developed much more of my own character, my own morals, and my own personal preferences...
Although I don't tend to push them on my current/pre-existing friends/relationships so much... I have noticed that they have made me picky... atleast compared to how I was before...
And I think the pickiness has possibly kept me from meeting many new people or seeing potential friendships in new acquaintances...

I could take two very different outlooks on things in my life right now...
I could tell you that I've been doing well in school, keeping a social life, keeping a job that i love for a year & 1/2+, and am in a relationship...

Or I could tell you that the new semester starts in 2 days and i'm scared of a few new changes that will be VERY challenging for me, people i meet never seem to "live up to my standars" anymore, my two closest-(work with most often)co-workers and I have been struggling to get along, and I'm lonely...


I have alot more I could say at the moment, but I'm freezing cold, sleepy, and ready for sleep so I can get up to be at work at 7am.
I really wanted to atleast kindof get that out.

i'm overwhelmed with stress
i was panicking in my sleep all night
i dreamt that i was late for work 3 times last night...
i have lots of work i have to get done and not much time at all...
i've been working ahead of my CIS110 class... i'm liked 2-3 projects ahead
hopefully i'll get the rest of that work done today so i can stay out of class wed.&thurs. so i can have more time to work on other schoolwork...

yesterday i was so stressed out i blanked out and locked myself out of my car at a gas station after class..
i was stranded for atleast an hour and had to have my mom leave work, drive home, get the spare key and come get me...
i was almost late to my bellydance class (luckily i hauled ass) hah
but i was going by a clock that was over 20 minutes behind and realized it was 6 minutes til class started... O_0;
I need to write two (4-7 page) papers by thursday morning...
and by friday morning i have to have my final project/presentation done...

i have an ortho appointment tomorrow afternoon and i have work tonight til late after class...
my love hasn't been talking to me :-/
I know he's stressed out but I am too and not being able to communicate AT ALL is really hard.
blahhhh
i'm just super stressed.
i g2g though because class starts in less than 45 min. and i'm still at home- need to get ready for work, *TRY* to read one more chapter in my book for class, and drive there so yeah

hopefully i'll have a less stressful update another time soon...

i feel so alone right now.

why does it have to be this way?
this doesn't seem healthy...
not the way things are right now.
i feel like i'm struggling.
i'm so overwhelmed.
i feel like i need someone to talk to...
but if i were to talk, i wouldn't feel as though i'm accomplishing anything.

why do i feel like i've been trying so much?
why do i feel like i'm just... on the side... by default.
is this stress?
for once i feel like calling out for help.
i'm not even making this stupid entry friends only.
i don't know why i'm even posting it.
i need someone to talk to me. talk to ME for a change. where is everyone?

What do you guys do in order to get yourself out of bed in the morning?

Every Sunday morning, I must get up early and be at work by 7am.
When your alarm goes up, what do you do or think in order to quit hitting snooze?
Any methods or mental mindnsets aside from simple obligation?

Please do share your ways... Any tips?

I can't even begin to explain with words how great this week was...
I can try to sum it up with a couple of pictures... but they don't do much justice...
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( when there are no words... )

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